FASHIONISTA-O-ESTILISTA

Nada

2008-09-30T18:28:00.003+05:30

I'm trying to figure out why I have not written in so long. I used to blog atleast every week. This is wht I have narrowed it down to.
1. I'm too busy with work
2. I'm too busy trying to make plans to study
3. I'm just lazy
4. I'm losing thousands of braincells a minute.
I used to write abt such deep stuff, stuff tht really invoked thinking, questions and doubts.
There is a lot going on... so I shld write more. Will try.
~ A

GlobalGiving

2008-05-30T16:02:00.003+05:30

I signed up with Global Giving today. It is a website dedicated to helping people help others. If you can't be there to actually help you can help by making donations or by just spreading the word.

"If you can't feed a hundred people then just feed one."
- Mother Teresa

"No one has ever become poor from giving."
- Anne Frank.

So do what little you can, coz a small step taken by us will take someone a long way.

The EPITOME of DUMBNESS…..

2007-11-22T11:05:00.002+05:30

That is my dog “name with-held on request”

Just for convenience I’m gonna call him L.

My dog L, ran out of the house yesterday.

He has done this before, but only during Diwali when the sounds of the fire crackers get to him and we aren’t at home. So my sis or I make it a point to stay home. But yesterday, almost 2 weeks after Diwali, some moron near my house decided that our planet wasn’t polluted enough and brought out the fireworks.

My sister and I, at 6 this morning were trying to figure out why he does that…. Run out where its louder and unsafe:

1) Maybe he was looking for us;
2) Maybe he feels we’d all be safer together;
3) Maybe he wants to protect us;

I know…. The last one is the most outrageous….. But I was giving L the benefit of the doubt.
But finally we decided…. L IS JUST DUMB…CUTE DUMB but none the less DUMB.

He really lived up to his name…. real L_ _ _ _!

My mom was in her room and my other dog F kept running to the door and back to her, barking. That’s when my mom realized that L was missing.
L had run across the road. Not just any road….. but a huge, dangerous crowded main road in front of my house. And believe me when I say he was extremely fortunate. Before the divider came up there used to be an accident almost every alternate day.

Ne way, my mom got him back. During all this my sister and I were at jubilee hills.

I have to go and buy acrylic sheets and seal the grill and gates….

MY MOM AND F SAVED L !!!

DOGS – U CAN’T LIVE WITH THEM, U CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT THEM!

Finally... time to blog....

2007-07-11T10:09:00.000+05:30

Juggling studies and work is gettin very tiring.
But i wonder if it is the thought of having to do both that makes me more tired, than actually doing it.
Thats most of whats goin on with me.... the other stuff, I just can't put up here.

Tagged....Why??

2007-05-15T10:11:00.000+05:30

Ahhhhhh I've been blogged.... oops i mean tagged.... honest mistake...
thanks krithika....
my life has just been made so much cooler.... i have to answer 20 questions...yayeee
ok here goes

1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it:
A scar on my right eyebrow.... beds are meant to be lay down on...i know that now but i apparently didn't when i went and hit my head on the corner of the bed...
(actually i fell....poooor me)

2. What is on the walls in your room?
my dad painted a scene of seagulls flying toward the sun... he was inspired by our favourite book 'Jonathan Livingston Seagull'.
And a few of my paintings.
oh how could i forget the pencil marks near the door, markin my height at different stages of my life.

3. What does your phone look like.
Its a cool Ericsson Walkman phone. (my fourth since i started using cells but the first that i got with my own earnings) i have covered it with a rubber sheath and some say i'm makin it look ugly. why u ask? coz on the day i bought it i dropped it under a cab, a centimeter away from the tyre, if the vehicle had moved foward even a bit, the cell would have been crushed, and so would my heart.....(there have been many more tumbles for the poor thing since then)

4. What music do you listen to?
all kinds.....
where is the line drawn between music and noise?? just curious

5. What is your current desktop picture?
at home it is a dress i designed, here it is a scene of 5 dolphins swimmin in cool clear blue water.

6. What do you want more than anything right now?
That is something i shall reveal when i've got it.....(a word of advice - don't hold ur breath its gonna be awhile.)

7. Do you believe in gay marriage?
Everyone shld learn to respect other ppls privacy.... its their life, its their right

8. What time were you born?
9.30 am

9. Are your parents still together?
Always

10. What are you listening to?
my manager talk

12. The last person to make you cry?
i don't reveal names

13. What is your favourite perfume/cologne?
Beautiful- Estee Lauder

14. What kind of hair/eye colour do you like on the opposite sex?
Black/Black or darkbrown/darkbrown

15. Do you like pain killers?
nah... i try to be all strong and try to stretch or sleep through my pain. (it works most times)

16. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
nah not too shy but have too big an ego....he he.... but if the right guy comes along(no one even comes close at the moment) i just might.

17. Fave pizza topping?
Chicken n cheese

18. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
Biryani.... my mouth is waterin

19. Who was the last person you made mad?
i love buggin my mom and sis, and they get really mad but it doesn't last too long.... coz i'm an adorable darling.... no one can stay mad at me.

20. Is anyone in love with you?
yes

INTRODUCTION

2007-05-11T16:39:00.000+05:30

one of the formal definitions of the above word is " formally making a person known to another or to the public".
Nowhere in the list of definitions did it say TORTURE.
yep thats what it is, when you have to introduce urself to almost 100 ppl from different depts. As if thats not bad enough i wasn't allowed to say my name, i had to give clues and ppl had to guess.
God's nectar, and starts with the first letter of the alphabet.
Can anyone get more clear about it???
i doubt it.
and ppl i had assigned to guessin my name, made me wait for a few more torturous moments before they finally helped me out of my misery.
Yes i can be thankful that i wasn't asked questions. But i'm not feeling very optimistic rite now. Its like getting a finger cut off, and instead of crying in pain u thank god ur other fingers are intact. (OK well i am exaggeratin a bit, but u get the point... if u don't, call me and we'll discuss).
My view to all this, if u're interested is that i am an interesting person(even if i have to say so myself ;) ) and everyone else around me is interesting in their own ways too. so why does anyone feel the need to force us into intros??
yea so a 100 odd ppl in the co now know my name? do i know any of theirs??(apart from the ones i knew before)................ NO
So what was the big point??
except i think that it gave some ppl a gr8 deal of pleasure.
Not that i'm complaining.
HA HA

Man i always thought the world was small, but just how small??

2007-05-10T15:33:00.000+05:30

Really Really Small. Believe me.

in the last 2 weeks i have met, recieved mails, or chatted with a whole load people who i lost touch with for yrs....

and get this
we found that we have a whole load of common friends/ colleagues. i caught up with 2 guys from my primary school, a girl from my 10th std, 2 guys from college, a girl who is the sister of my college classmate.
for five yrs after my 10th i didn't stay in touch with my classmates except a few(for many reasons). but now we are all on orkut so whether ppl like it or not everyone has a medium of contact.
a colleague of mine from infy is here at de shaw...
and a couple more.

I should get back to work now.... will give more updates on a regular basis

New place of work

2007-05-10T15:14:00.000+05:30

i've gotten back to work, i am now an emloyee of D. E. Shaw co. hyd....(have been since may 1st 07)
its damn cool out here. i'm getting the best of everything.... listing it out here...
1) i get to go back home to my family(doggies included) and my bed each nite.
2) i DON'T have to COOK, clean or do anythin unless i want to...
3) i eat fresh fruits and vegetables everyday and good homemade food
(for those who don't know " one fine saturday morning in the month of jan in b'lore i woke up to the fact that i hadnt eatin any fresh fruit or veg for 3 whole weeks.... 3 whole weeks that is 21 days. i freaked, ran out to the market and bought loads of fruits and vegs. didnt know what to make with the vegs so i just boiled them and thats what i ate the whole weekend) my way of makin up for three weeks of eating junk.
4) don' t have to pay for any living expenses, bills, rent etc
5) everyone on my team at DE Shaw are graduates avg age is 21.... really fun environ, flexible timings, real cool...

yep i realised i've used the word cool more than once, but it honestly is, and its not just the airconditioning ;)

Gone full circle!

2007-04-05T19:14:00.001+05:30

Guess where i am,

Back home. ..... Seven months in b'lore and i just about had enough. first couple of months were great. made me feel all grown up and mature. but then the novelty of the whole living alone thing kinda wore off..

Things that i got to do that i may not have been able to do back home (some have been ommitted, to ensure that i live longer-- hehe)
1. Have to cook my own food ( i could have done without learning this)
2. Due to bad results of the above, i had to eat maggi noodles 90% of the time or get take out.
3. Could go for long drives at anytime (coz i was allowed to take my car down)
4. Handled a move from one end of the city into an apartment at the other end. (all on my own!!. packed everything and got the movers to carry it)
5. Travel alot alone.
6. Though mostly into computers, got hands on experience in recruitment.
7. Know most of the roads in bangalore.
8. Learnt a lil kannada.

will add to the list later....

2006-11-29T11:53:00.000+05:30

found a 2 bhk independent cute lil house with a slopin roof, a terrace and everythin, and have been livin there since july.... now i'm movin into a 1 bhk apartment owned by my family and no more rent... hurray! livin alone has been a cool experience so far.... after initially having been overcome by homebound nostalgia, i now only experience bouts of it periodically.. and i have to admit.. talking to everyone back home almost 3-4 times each day has made life easier.

Now all that i have to do is get back into a systemic way of life in my new place... but i'm givin my self till this year end so i guess it won't be too hard.

2006-11-29T11:38:00.000+05:30

People seem to have a lot to say ..... but actually do very little. how many ppl live by the values that they claim to have?

HUNTING

2006-05-19T10:17:00.001+05:30

i've been online apartment hunting for the last week or so..... and all the best deals seem to be gone.... n e ways my search is still on and at the rate its going i'll have one perfect one(hopefully close to center of the city) by mon. Man my phone bill is rocketing with all the std calls i'm having to make. i never thought it'd be so hard to find a good place to stay.

Now i know better.

COUNTDOWN....3, 2, 1....

2006-05-19T09:49:00.000+05:30

Two days to go.... not enough time to say bye to everyone and everything around me. But i shall start now....
Goodbye....
Goodbye family and my pups
Goodbye friends(especially leo and nav)
Goodbye stray dogs i adopted
Goodbye my room
Goodbye painting which my dad painted on the wall
Goodbye my bed
Goodbye my roll top table
Goodbye my bathroom
Goodbye my study table
Goodbye my trunk of art stuff
Goodbye my dear walk in closet
Goodbye my bahroom and bedroom doors
Goodbye my large mirror
Goodbye my floor
Goodbye my ceiling
Goodbye my lovely tv
Goodbye my drawing room couch on which i spent all my nites studying for exams
Goodbye my kitchen
Goodbye all the lights and fans
Goodbye my home
Goodbye my sbi branch
Goodbye my accident prone main rd
Goodbye Paradise
Goodbye Nanking
Goodbye Blue diamond
Goodbye haiking
Goodbye nizam college
Goodbye Secbad club
Goodbye Sailing club
Goodbye Nizam club
Goodbye 10 D
Goodbye to all my haunts....
Goodbye HYDERABAD!!!
Atleast until i'm back for the vacations....

I am aGraduate..... or so i hope

2006-05-02T08:59:00.000+05:30

I finished my three years of degree yesterday. I am finally a graduate entering the world of the working man. Or atleast i hope that the college won't think they'd miss me too much and decide that i should stay back...... pray for me. yeneways i've been awake for 42 hours straight so i'm kinda wired. c ya

I AM A GRADUATE>>>>>YEAH!!!!

B'lore here i come.

2006-04-23T00:42:00.000+05:30

I am movin. Just me movin 600 odd kms away from home. leavin all that i've known for the last 20 years of my life(ok that is all my life) to start a new in b'lore. why u ask? coz i got a pretty cool job there, thats why.

mixture of emotions here......which i'm sure is gonna get very explosive very soon. excitement, fear, curiosity, happiness, sad, impatient..... to name a few. 20 days from now i'll be a hyderabadi livin in b'lore.............. thats a big big Change for me. Livin away from home for more than a couple of weeks...

Changing too fast!

2006-04-23T00:20:00.000+05:30

Have u realised how things just change all around u?? u take things for granted thinking some things will just Be.
But they never just "are"...are they? I mean a person is never the same, the sky never looks the same, the air never feels the same. You think certain people will always be in ur life but thats one of the biggest lies of life. We know for a fact that everything else changes but we always let our selves belive that people and relationships will always be constant. But we can never control what has to happen with us or things around us let alone other people. The sooner we accept that the easier life will be. We can't control change like we can't control death.

CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT THERE IS!!

Parivartan prakrutic niam hai!

Peace and Serinity

2006-02-04T12:38:00.000+05:30

since most of us can't actually be there the only other alternative is sittin in ur room painting the scene with only ur loved ones around u. what more can one want.....

lessons to learn.....

2006-01-30T23:30:00.000+05:30

If u can figure out how MCP (male chauvinistic pigs) think....plz enlighten me too.....
I couldn't figure them out if my life depended on it. And believe me i've tried.
They r everywhere..... They even objected to my being CC (chief coordinator) for our college fest b'coz i'm a girl and also b'coz i have my priorities straight and wouldn't let them spend hard earned sponsor money on booze....I won by a large margin...double the number of the second contender....
This is what democracy has come to...... threats and violence....or was it always that??
I should just learn to brush off the pests.
Thats it from me today.......signin off

Circumstances

2006-01-30T23:20:00.000+05:30

do circumstances make the man u r??
Or does the man u r dictate how u handle circumstances??

I'M BACK

2006-01-15T19:37:00.000+05:30

long time since i wrote here. but i'll be on more often so u'll be hearin from me.
c ya

DESTINY,DESTINY,DESTINY!!

2005-04-22T17:06:00.000+05:30

Do we live pre-Destined lives??
or
Do we make our own Destiny??
Lets assume we have a choice:::
1) pre-destined
Then nothin is in our hands
All we have to do is sit still
And things will just happen
The way they are destined to.
2)make our own destiny
Then everything is in our hands
And we know what the result will be
No surprises, no shocks
Life will be a simple mathematical expression
But
nither is entirely true
In this world nothing is perfect
Nothing

We live Pre-Destined lives in which we make our own Destiny!!!

THE BRAVE FEAR

2005-04-21T01:00:00.000+05:30

I was just thinkin about his a while back.......
no matter how brave a person is he will always have somethin to fear.
it may not be fear of reptiles or fear of drowning,
it may not be arachnophobia or claustrophobia,
it may not be fear for his own life.
but deep down i'm certain he fears loss.....
loss of his loved ones.
coz however dispassionate a person is,
he is bound to be attached to somethin or someone.
"well what is ur point" u ask?
my point is that no matter how many fears of urs u conquer
u will always fear losing the object of ur affection
the thing u treasure and feel most passionate about.
axn's fear factor only proves
people can overcome small physical and mental fears
but nothing related to loss of life.

Love !!!

2005-04-16T01:50:00.000+05:30

Say it's a form of heat that doesn't riseBut passes from one body to the next.Say it flows through you and then outAnd back in again like some ghostly threadWeaving a basic pattern inside of youThat will slowly begin to take the shapeOf what you'll think you can describe.

WE(LIVING BEINGS)--GOD'S INVENTIONS/ TOYS

2005-04-14T11:13:00.000+05:30

The other day a friend of mine and i were discussing why souls were created and we came up with this idea. i had thought of this a couple of times before and didn't actually dwell into it and when i mentioned it to her we discussed it and i thought i should share it.......
Like man invents machines & toys and puts them thru different tasks to test their ability
God has created his toys (us humans) and is testing our ability and strengths and weaknesses
Those beings that don't break under the pressure move on thru the different stages of being and then attain moksha
And those of us who give in , slide down the ladder and are finally destroyed in the furnace of hell.
where do u see urself ????

2005-04-10T20:18:00.000+05:30

my friends tell me that i'm gettin very philosophical.... well guys i've really been thinkin about this stuff alot. and none of u seem to be using ur grey cells here. where the heck are the comments and thoughts. there is no use just readin it i want some input. PRONTO. Its no wonder i havent felt like posting stuff on here. i might as well keep my thoughts in my diary. Well since i'm in the "philosophical" mode i might as well get on with it. LIFE is such an unpredictable thing isn't it?
When u think u're at the top of the world and that things can't get any better... they do
And when u think u're doomed u find that there is hope yet
LIFE is such amazing roller coaster
U never know when it can send a chill down ur spine
Or radiate warmth thru ur every cell
Life is much shorter than u think
Live each moment like its ur last
And u'll never regrett a moment of it
Hold on tight coz u're in for one heck of a ride

PHILOSOPHICAL ME

2005-04-10T19:30:00.001+05:30

my friends tell me that i'm gettin very philosophical.... well guys i've really been thinkin about this stuff alot. and none of u seem to be using ur grey cells here. where the heck are the comments and thoughts. there is no use just readin it i want some input. PRONTO.
Its no wonder i havent felt like posting stuff on here. i might as well keep my thoughts in my diary.
Well since i'm in the "philosophical" mode i might as well get on with it.

LIFE is such an unpredictable thing isn't it?
When u think u're at the top of the world and that things can't get any better... they do
And when u think u're doomed u find that there is hope yet
LIFE is one amazing roller coaster
U never know when it can send a chill down ur spine
Or radiate warmth thru ur every cell
Life is much shorter than u think
Live each moment like its ur last
And u'll never regrett a moment of it
Hold on tight coz u're in for one heck of a ride

2005-02-20T21:40:00.000+05:30

KAUN KISKA AUR KISKA KAHA???

its been so long

2005-02-20T20:50:00.000+05:30

man the past month has been so hectic and nerve racking. it got worse as "expressions" nizam college fest drew closer. i was designing clothes for our college group to be displayed on ramp. the whole week before was a roller coaster of emotions. but it was all worth it. when all the models got on stage with the clothes i created, man that feeling was something else. my first show. i know it was a college show but each one had glory of their own and mine was as a designer. i know i still have a long way to go but this was a great experience. it in it self taught me alot...abt people, abt relationships and most importantly being appreciated by people other than my family and friends. people i didnt even know congratulated me. told me thy loved it and that they were actually wearable and interesting. our group got the 2nd prize and that is a small step toward a higher goal and hopefully for all of us.
me i'm normally a shy person especially in public and when i got on stage at first i must admit i was nervous but when i realised that most of the crowed was cheering for me calling my name i actually enjoyed it.
Most importantly it was a feeling of triump when i realised that a lot of people loved my work. not work i got done but it was work i did my self. stich, stick and paint each ensemble. i still have a lo to learn and i plan on working on it.

ARTISTA SANITY (GOYA)

2005-01-18T10:11:00.000+05:30

Today has been such an arty day(if thats even a word). We've discussed how most of the famous artists and writers (for that matter anyone extremely creative) has toward the end either gone crazy, dark, or killed themselves so involved with their work that they've lost all connections with the real world and sanity(relative) Its fantastic to be a great artist and all but I wouldn't go that far. I think my sanity is far more important, thank u very much. Now lets talk about Goya for instance(coz I just bought his book) his work was all godly and frolicy(k I know thats not a word but u get the point) at first, then it revolved around the dutchess of Alba(who he is said to have had an affair with.) and her enemies. Towards the end it got all dark with Saturn, craziness, death, blood........ Somewhere in between his work had embedded in it a lot of satire. And he was one of the rare artists who painted the female nude(naked maja). But for all the naked maja's overt sexuality, the clothed maja was more erotic. They were both confiscated by the inquisition in 1815. He was damn good at what he did but I guess he crossed the line of sanity and then there was no going back....

THOUGHTS!!!

2005-01-16T14:40:00.000+05:30

If God created everything ,
Did he create Evil too??

If where ever there is good, there is also evil.
Isn't evil as powerful as good??

One doesn't know what he's got , until its gone.
Don't let that happen to u.

CHOICE IS URS!!!

Life can be percieved in 2 ways
A continous circle, where things keep repeating themselves, and one doesn't learn from his experiences and doesn't grow.
OR
A line moving up on the page of God's creation. Growing and learning from one's experiences and not repeating one's mistakes. Living in the present and looking foward. Not looking back due to some insecurities but just to remind ur self of whom u've become.

THAT CHOICE MY FRIEND IS YOURS!!
AND YOURS ALONE!!!

2005-01-16T13:23:00.000+05:30

SOULS!!!

WHY WERE THEY CREATED??

I was told that God is the creator. So tell me..........
We live our lives choosing our paths at every fork: good or bad.
If good, we r said to reborn as higher forms till we attain moksha and become one with God.
If bad, we r reborn as lower forms till we become one with the Devil.
And we keep circling around till our choices are consistant.

The driving forse of our existance is called the SOUL- And that i believe.

It is said that souls have to go through birth and rebirth to find one's place with god or the devil.

All this would have made sense if souls already existed or were created by a third person.
But! God Creates All!!
God created souls which then have to find their true destination.

So why create souls at all???
What is the purpose of existance???
Are we just the pawns in God's game of life???

2005-01-16T13:08:00.000+05:30

BELIEVE!!!

Some say there is a heaven, And a hell, Others say there is none. Some say there is a god, And a devil.Others say neither exist.
Some say god is good,
and devil is evil.
Others say they don't believe.

Some say we come from ashes ,
And we end in ashes.
Others say we are organic ,
And thats how it is.

Some say god creates,
And the devil destroys.
Others say it nature,
And that everything has a scientific explanation.
So what do u believe???

LIFE!!!

2005-01-16T12:46:00.000+05:30

Life!Its so amazing!
One second u have it all,
Next tis all gone.
Life! Its so confusing!
Each situation needs to be handled differently,
Each experience is suppsed to teach us something.
Experience: good or bad.
Life! Its what u percieve it to be.
Life! Its what u make of it.
Life! Its god's gift, cherish it, value it and grow with it.
If life is a teacher what is it teachin us??
love-hate, loss-gain, pleasure-pain, revenge-forgiveness, sadness-happiness, birth-death..........
Life just goes on.
What is life's purpose???

MY THOUGHTS,MY QUESTIONS ON EXISTANCE AND LIFE

2005-01-16T11:09:00.000+05:30

FOUNTAIN OF LIFE

Life starts as an embryo,
growing inside the mother's womb,
depending on it for food and oxygen till it is born,
it then breathes on its own.
He lives and evolves with his family,
but as time flies by he learns to fend for himself.
He either stays or moves off on his own.

Life is like a fountain,
starts with drops collecting in a pipe,
to form a steady stream like a family,
when the fountain starts,
it sprays each droplet seperating.
Part of it evaporates as moisture molecules,
movin further and further away,
and part of falls back to stay as a family.
Back into the pond just to be seperated,
to make a choice yet again.

WHEN IS IT ENOUGH???

What does one have to do to get what one wants??
"WORK HARD" they say "WORK HARD"
What does one have to do to do well for himself??
"PLAN AND WORK TOWARD IT" they say "PLAN AND WORK TOWARD IT"
What does one have to do to be popular??
"PRETEND" they say "PRETEND"

When u have something u want more.
And when u have that u want more.
So where does it end??
Whith what does it end??
Does one ever stop wanting??
Since one comes into this world with nothing and leaves with nothing,
Why does one keep wanting??

2005-01-11T16:13:00.000+05:30

hot dog

the EPITOME of INTELLIGENCE !!!

2005-01-11T09:19:00.000+05:30

hey ya'll

it's me again! well i'm here to state a very obvious fact. i'm sure u all know this but let me spell it out ""you've got an extemely intelligent friend and by tht i mean me!!"". u want numbers u say...138,145,151.(iq scores)

so there!

well like nav put it i've got the iq josh so i'm gonna write somemore. i didn't know they were so much fun.

thts all for now...live on till i give u some more xcitin updates on my happenin life!!!

TIME--TIME--TIME--WHERE THE HELL IS IT

2005-01-10T13:07:00.000+05:30

"I thought i had a lot of that {TIME silly, didn't u catch the heading} when i signed up for my fashion course. BOY WAS I WRONG!!! That seems to be the only thing that i'm running low on. oh yea that and energy.I know that its good for my future and all...but blah blah blah. yup i'm in one of those funny moods today. i'll be bunking my nift class again just so that i can finish the assignments by tomorow. lets see how that goes.On the lighter side i'm glad we have holidays for the next week i want to do somethin other than go to college and study.later on i'll upload some of my work and designs so do keep in touch."